Maybe he WANTS me to give up??hmmm….

Any progress ive made after WH’s A hes managed to screw up times 10 about as fast as u can blink an eye! Now i was to point of “neutral” and starting to feel a tiny bit closer to him when BAM all hell breaks loose bc i mention needing to pull some long hours at work which is my company and ive been sucking wind the past 6 months bc of the PAIN HE HAS CAUSED ME…and he tells me im choosing biz over family! He literally cussed me out the door after he TOLD ME TO PLZ GO TO WORK bc he didmt want to look at me! I have never been so ready to CALL IT QUITS IN MY LIFE! he is really making me HAVE NO IDEA IF i still feel ANYTHING for this IMPOSSIBLE MAN WHO BROKE MY HEART in a million pieces. Really considering giving up. I wont ALLOW him to bring me ANY LOWER. HES TAKEN THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, my trust, my self worth, my appetite, my passion, my LOVE FOR THE FATHER of my babies, my comfort of my 100 year old family home that was my DREAM HOME (now it represents so much PAIN), any sense of security (which i had a LOT OF)…and i WILL NOT LET HIM AND THAT WHORE TAKE MY CREATIVITY AND BUSINESS that i worked my ASS off for 5 years to establish! He cant have ANYTHING ELSE.im literally like a hallow persom walking around or a corpse with a pulse but he CAN TAKE NO MORE. im drawing line in the sand and i wont allow myself to even take any more pain/meanness/his guilt talking and cussing me! Its time to find MYSELF UNDER THIS PAIN AND MOVE ON!! i dont know HOW to get back up but hes such an asshole that keeps hurting me deeper and deeper that i feel so dumb for being so heartbroken. Really thinking MAYBE he IS TRYING TO RUN ME OFF! cuz hes ALREADY PUSHED ME FARTHER AWAY THAN IVE BEEN YET ON THIS JOURNEY THRU HELL WITH HIM!?!? i just dont think ill ever feel i know this person i THOUGHT i married and it truly pains me to point of no words!